Oh Tom. Thanks for your continued notes of encouragement. So here it is mate, no scripture, no chapter and verse, just me - to you.
I keep banging this drum Tom because I care about you. Despite your nasty, foul mouthed comments full of rage and hatred, I want you to get saved, and that surpasses any (slight) feelings I may have to tear into you. Do you think you need saving? Nah, probably not. Do you care that I care about you? Nah, doesn't look like it. But that doesn't really matter does it. Believe it or not, I could be doing other more profitable things than posting videos and writing posts like this to you, but I kick-started this blog again to try and reach some of the people I once knew (a bit) to show them some of the truth I have been shown. It has been the biggest thing ever to happen to me and I like to talk about it. Not because I like the sound of my own voice (or type?!) but because it's so incredible I want to share it.
You don't have to believe any of it though Tom. You don't have to believe in Jesus Christ, or in God. You have the choice, you can reject Him. But you won't fully do that will you. Because somewhere in that diamond hard, charcoal black heart of yours, there's a tiny chink of hope that makes you keep your options open. A little voice that breaks through the drunken rants, when, whatever other spirit is in you (other than the scotch), is quiet enough for you to hear it, that small voice tells you maybe you should back-off the abuse, or not go so far as to completely deny the Father or Son. You know that at any moment you could die - happens to lots and lots of other people every day - right out of the blue. And when that day comes, and it will, regardless of whether you choose to believe any of this, you will get on your knees in front of Him and beg Him for forgiveness.
I KNOW He is real Tom, you won't ever be able to shake my faith in Him or love for Him. It is greater than any love for anything else I have here on earth. And because I know He is real, and that He loves me, I also know that He loves you too. He reaches out to you, specifically you, every day. Not through me necessarily, but you know He does, deep down you know it. Maybe that's why you get so angry? Although I couldn't imagine why. Saying that, I also used to be extremely angry at the world, and frankly, I was a piece of worthless sinful crap. I still have no idea why God would pull me out of the horrific destination I was heading for, but He did, and I'm nothing special (far, far from it in your opinion) and so if I can get saved by Christ, so can you.
I would have once said 'that I was truly sorry if I offended you with any of this, of proclaiming my faith publicly in Jesus Christ, of telling people the truth, of warning them about what is coming', but not now. Your hardness of tone has been nothing less than inspirational, because now I know how utterly and completely lost some folks are and how urgent Jesus Christ's message of hope really is. There is no time to pussyfoot about.
I will put up with your abuse indefinitely if necessary Tom, or for as long as it takes or (pressingly) as long as we have. But if you really don't want to read or watch any of it here or have anything to do with me, please, remove this blog off your roll - stats, comments and followers really don't matter to me.
I pray for you Tom. If you think that is lame, weak or delusional - that's your look out. I may not like your abuse, but I love you - enough to tell you that and try to reach out.