What struck me today though, as I sat observing the people around me, was how alien I felt. Not just amongst these people on the tram but also in the city. In fact, as I walked through the noisy streets after my meeting was over, I realised that I didn't belong here.
I worked in this city many years ago, and became quite cosmopolitan, a young man about town, in and out of bars and pubs, socialising here and there. It always felt very familiar to me. My town.
For some reason though, today I felt like I was on a day trip somewhere exotic, like an excursion to a strange foreign land where people spoke a different language.
It freaked me out a bit. After another tram ride I got back to the car with some relief, surrounding myself with the safe surroundings of the little cab.
It seems that since becoming self-employed over twelve years ago, I have apparently detached form my old life, the people I once knew and the things I once craved and pursued. Now I seem to be in limbo. Not where I was but not quite where I want to be either.
I read some of your blogs, people who have exited city life, the treadmill of work and the need to acquire 'stuff' to fit in with everyone else I think that is where I need to be. Today I realised that I have changed on a very deep level.
Like I said, nothing very special but a very profound day for me. I wonder where I'll end up...
11 comments:
lol you are sucha red blooded male
a trip to the city..... bliss I would have thought!
ps the pic is from the EXCORSIST!
Shit, I'd hoped I was blue-blooded like Tom.
No it's me standing outside the guys office. The clients head was spinning around though...
It's such a terrible, terrible shame that Billingsgate Fish Market no longer exists in it's original form. You would have slotted in nicely there. It's all down to pheremones, Dear Boy.
I went to Billingsgate a couple of months ago Tom and only just narrowly avoided being sold along with a crate of Herring.
"Smell my pheromones" - one of my best pick-up lines...
That's a good thing!!
Agrees with the Alien above.
ha! try being a geordie in Cardiff me duck....
I reckon a nutcase from the North East would blend in seamlessly with any nutcase in Wales even with a Nottinghamshire twang.
there we are then, be there now, cwtch me, wanna smooth?, fancy half n half?, mines a brains, there's lovely, aww it's fabalus, where to is it?, down by there!
Please tell me that pick-up line never worked.....
It's lovely breaking the programming, isn't it?
I think that is one pick-up line guaranteed NOT to work Meggs.
Why, did it work for you?
Still trying to work that out Meggs. Any programming tips?
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